I was thoroughly disgusted with the painting in front of me! I was afraid to keep working on it, for fear of ruining it, and I was afraid to start all over. All of a sudden it dawned on me that fear was getting in my way. How many times had I encouraged my students not to let fear govern their brushstrokes, and here I was succumbing to the same thing. It was time for a new mindset! As quickly as I could, I grabbed a fresh canvas and looked through my photo's for a bit of inspiration. I found one. I knew this painting would be more of an impressionistic piece, so the photo would simply serve as a guide. Inspiration was suddenly in the air. I squeezed out fresh paints as quickly as I could. I was ready to start painting now and I didn't want anything to stand in my way. The paint went on the canvas so quickly, I wasn't even sure it was my hand putting it on. It made me think of something I had once read~ "You are God's paintbrush, God's pen and God's body to dance upon the earth and bring about the new." Another thought came to mind. I had read this one too~ "If we make a god of perfection, we risk pushing ourselves into a creative desert. We are afraid to try because we are afraid we won't be good." I was done with fear! I knew I was short on time and I could not leave until this painting was done. I might never get this inspiration again. Faster and faster my brush went. When I ran out of paint, I agitatedly squeezed more on the palette. It was coming, I could see it now. Finally I stepped back from the canvas and really looked at the painting for the first time. Wow! It was exactly what I had imagined it could be. My studio no longer had an atmosphere of fear but of joy and accomplishment!
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